Feeling the darkness fermenting and losing its temper

reFeeling the darkness fermenting and losing its temper
It had finally withdrawn, now it’s intensifying
Expanding and contracting persistently
The transitions required have multiplied
The world spins and I can’t go with it
Hours misplaced giving it time

Thinking I was concealed then I am found
Smoke is blown at me and I’m frozen hot
The mind turns blank
There is nothing but fear
Nothing makes sense
Seeking help leads to confusion and nothing
I need them to speak but when they do I can’t translate

My phone is blocked by a preoccupied brain
I touch a tree
I try to contact anyone
I escape people
A figure with blue shoelaces scratches my shoulder
I go in and out
The postman vanishes
A dog
I find a way
I lose it

I find myself again, on the ground behind a wall
She finds me later too
Now I am walking with a woman
It turns out to a place I don’t want to be
Sitting there feeling nothing
I don’t care about his juice carton from the ward
Methodically trying to find a way to let go of the end of my tether

 

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